-bEaT oF aN aNgEl-

Everyone has changed so much. I think if you need any reminiscence of the past, you can still look for me. I m still as nerdy, though less of a mugger cos lack of motivation and well geeky.

I am really awed to see the metamorphosis in everyone. For good or for the better. Haha, but here I m still un-fun unlike everyone else. Life in uni as usual, still not as vibrant as other ppl. Maybe that's how the way i like it to be. =X

I wonder how's everyone else. Sometimes I feel quite lost in the new environment, literally cos i got poor direction sense around NTU but also with the new system and new people. I m still so practical, I just wanna do well in school, get an exco in the clubs, mug hard, graduate and move on. I have not think so much as to how i wanna spend my last schooling years, having fun and enjoying. Sometimes I dun want to be the old boring me, but i just cant make myself fun. I dont drink, i dun club basically i dun very much socialise. The ZOBSS thingy is still catching up on me.

Its a bit like losing the good things as you grow up. How the friendships you have forged in the past will just lose its magical touch when time crepts past. Not just S06, but basically people i know in the past, present and possibly in the future.

Another emo post like how i m these days.

I m still the same me, who else do you want me to become?

Sigh.

-Fallen--Star- A leaf from my chapter.

posted by Charlene Sebastz @ 8:25 PM

Sometimes life is just so irritating that you wonder why u bother entertaining it.

School started and projects started, discussions, readings, lectures, tutorials. I just had enough of all these. I start toying with the idea of not wanting to go university. So what if i m going to earn $1000 a month for the rest of my life compared to my high flyer friends? Why do i have to fit into the society's mould?

It is getting so tough to trying to fit into a place I dont wanna be in. I dont wanna mug, I dont wanna try so hard to do so many things that I dont wanna do. There's nothin i wanna do, at least none of the things that I m currently expected to do.

And, I think that there is just a fundamental problem within us that we are avoiding. There are always one hundred and one reason why it wont work out. Of cos there's no problem if we dont wanna acknowledge it. We WILL talk about it, lets wait for the day WILL happens. It's not about telling me that you care that solves it. Ah, i dont know, I shall just keep quiet.

I am so sick of being where I am now. Please take me away.

posted by Charlene Sebastz @ 2:45 PM